Visions of my children wiping tear from open eyes
As they Kneel beside my coffin
family say their last goodbyes
But its the faces of my babies
got me trippin thankin god for breath
Expressions filled with pain has got
me strappin on the vest
And I know that I ain't living right
I hang on borrowed time
And this life's gone leave them
bastards cause they pops has
got to grind
Little mouths have got to eat so I
hug them hit the streets
Spending time with them and money
got me feelin incomplete
And I ain't scared of any mothafucka
fight the flames of hell
But a child without his dad has
got me hiding in my shell
Got me shakin in my boots to see
them face this world alone
Are the strong enough to cope
stuck in half a fuckin home
As I lay them down to sleep it's all
on me their soul to keep
if I die before I wake I pray that
God is up there waitin
With an army full of angels
strapped with gats cause
I'm defying
Since I first became o father
only fear I have is dying

This situation has got me loosing losing sleep
I can not eat
I'm feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me

This situation has got me loosing losing sleep
I can not eat
I'm feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me

[Blaze]
After all that I have ever done
And all that you will ever see from life
Death beyond the grave
How will they remember me
I only fear the lost of my voice
When it's gone
The only noise is the pen
I'm a writer by choice
I can cut my tongue clean off
And smoke myself toothless
I still be on the mic
Spittin shit they call ruthless
The truth is
I go deaf dumb and blind in one ear
And be the dopest dead deaf dumb
blind guy youd ever hear
I ain't scared of dyin
Or Death I've been there
Rotten in the ground in
The pine box for many years
My return in the form of reincarnation
I'm the walking, wounded, mental
Getting lost in translation
and with the loss of expression
brings great depression
The thoughts of everything ending
is what im guessing.
Is there a light at the end
there aint no bend in the road
if i go we all go
as the bomb im carrying explodes.

This situation has got me loosing losing sleep
I can not eat
I'm feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me

This situation has got me loosing losing sleep
I can not eat
I'm feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me

[Monoxide]
My eyes open but I don't remember much
I try to focus but the light is bright as fuck
I go to sit up but I'm strapped and stuck
Stuck panic can't say nothin
Like my jaw is wired shut
Now how the fuck I got to where I
am is still a mystery
My memories not assisting me
As I lay here in misery
Literally hopin some body would
give me some kind of time
I'm I dead of alive
Is this a dream or a sign
Is there a chance I can find my mind and rewind
Button paint me behind blinds and find somethin
It's like a game but nobody told me we were playin
And the fact that I don't know
if I'm alive and sane
And inside my brain only one thing remains
The fear of no knowing
paralyzes all most everthin
An second can be my last breath
And my best guess is nothin with on memories left I'm sorry

This situation has got me losting losing sleep
I can not eat
I'm feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me

This situation has got me losting losing sleep
I can not eat
I'm feeling weak the fear has got me
On my knees
The fear has got me