Intro:
Yeah, it's crazy ups and downs downs, you know whatenter deleted
I'm sayin'?enter added
Crazy how the worldenter deleted
runs, word up. up
Check it out. Bring out, bring it on. in

Hook:
Lord I try Lord, I'm tryin' to keep positive, but positive
But this life is full of strife
And and I'm tired of trying tryin' to conquer it
Lord always thinkingBoy, you know I was thinkin' negative what will
What can go wrong will go wrong
Until until the beast in me vanishes

Verse 1:
First of all I was born under a bad sign, confinded sign
Confined to torcher
Never torture, never saw what life had to offer
Time slips away like pop singles on the radio
Chino never had the doe, I was determined thoughenter added
Sabotaged at birth, cursed by an evil angel to
To strangle
My my aspirations from every angle
From a street corner to a demo deal from Warner
Hardcore performer, crowd warmer, thought warmer

Thought it was on but it wasn't
I never got no budget, stuck like a glue trap
It trap, it goes to prove that
Being the greatest lyricist can't paint the full picture
It's a full mixture, mixture

I can't get me no, no satisfaction
Like being bein' blind watching watchin' a movie with no closed caption
I need some time to ease my mind, mind
I'm bested
Fuck bested, fuck Mr. Wendal my Development is Arrested development's arrested

All I wanted to do was rock with my fast ass
And blast past the mass, collect quick cash
Did what I did best create, best, create but began to hate
All these flake music people makin' artists waitenter added
But I'm a I'ma be up there one day
And soon to slam wax wax, innovate rhymes that my fans consume
I view this world through my notepad
Thus expanding my vocab to win, till then, then it's all bad
Hook (x2)Lord, I try to keep positive
But this life is full of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it
Boy, you know I was thinkin' negative
What can go wrong, will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes
Verse 2:Lord, I try to keep positive
But this life is full of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it
Boy, you know I was thinkin' negative
What can go wrong, will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes

When I was merely a sophmore, sophomore, went to Atlanta on a false tour
This ain't what I prayed so hard for
Dreams broken into individual particles like
Like porcelain
Figurings figurings attached to me like barnaclesenter added
Now I'm suppose supposed to be happy like Bobby McFerrin
Keep faith, the only thing holy is the drawers I'm wearin'
89''89 I aimed to graduate, no exaggerate
I got it now but trust too bad it seems to gravitate

Evaporating positive energy from inside of me
To the point where my love for God no more provides for me
Of course lost pride, obviously the force rides
To paradise nobody no one invites but puts the Bill Of Rightsenter added
1430 SAT S A T proving ya, ya
I'm a spick that'llenter deleted
die respective like Rahoul Julia
So cease with, all that street shit
Expect MC from Chi kid, you gets the wicked priest shit
Until shit, till I see fit, to fit

To open my life strifeenter deleted
like the pearly gates of heaven Heaven
For ? merely a entertainment this is my expression
Prepare wealth and I'll share self, maybe self
Maybe I can help
But but I'm lost but I be large anywhere elseenter added
The ill eagle, illegal, twisted, war novelist
The problem swallowed us, it takes an activated mind to follow this
And true to realm to be ourselves, ourselves not toenter deleted
follow a fad or give in to trends
Till then, it's all bad
Hook (x2)Lord, I try to keep positive
But this life is full of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it
Boy, you know I was thinkin' negative
What can go wrong will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes
Verse 3:Lord, I try to keep positive
UnanswereedBut this life is full of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it
Boy, you know I was thinkin' negative
What can go wrong, will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes

Unanswered prayers plays the background, background
I pull my baseball caps down
I hide the tracks of my tears from rapping rappin' peersenter added
I finally got on and soon he wasn't a moment to
I lose my mind, I lose my friends, my daughter and friends
My daughter's in a coma tooenter added
I'm going goin' through a strange tug of war inside my mental wall
Record just went platinum, I'm slapping slappin' 'em, I'll show you all
Cover of Rolling Stones, Vibe even TV Guide
Was filming filmin' my first movie in L.A. when I heard my baby diedenter added
Shook it off without a thought that she was beautiful
Soul Train Awards Awards, I go to not my daughters funeral
I stay drunk and high like I'm imperial
Surrounded by more white groupies than a Rakim videoenter added
Now life's a tour to me, except the way I was rejected formally
Disrespected neighborhoods I know supported me
It's eating eatin' me, suicide attemps attempts repeatedly
What I worked so hard for, for ultimately is defeating defeatin' meenter added
I'm paranoid my own mom can't avoid being a tabloid
So she wasn't shocked when my baby movie flopped
Caught in the industry, spending spendin' money feverishly frivolously
Now I'mve I've been robbed, I can't believe my laywers lawyers did this to meenter added
Next album was filled up with tragedy tragedies and despair
FansAre fans with smiling smilin' faces with no real purpose for being bein' here
I call the dear Lord Lord, when in Billboard
I plummet from 3 to 10 I guess 10, it seems that failure is my new trendenter added
Thought I was all that, now I just fall flat, splat
VailsVials of crack, my old friends won't let me call back
So where in mind can am I? Can I find myself a misty storm invisible storm?
Invisible to God
God, I'm falling fallin' off like TJ Swan
Hook (x2)Lord, I try to keep positive
But this life is full of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it
Boy, you know I was thinkin' negative
What can go wrong, will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes

Lord, I try to keep positive
But this life is full of strife and I'm tired of tryin' to conquer it
Boy, you know I was thinkin' negative
What can go wrong, will go wrong until the beast in me vanishes