Deviates My Life Lyrics:
Classes I've got something to say about the state
of union today it's not a union, sometimes i
wonder if it ever was United states, united
people, is it all just b.s. are we all created
equal correct me if I'm wrong, i hope i am i stand
in the lower class and i see no end we're all just
victims of income segregation why must 3 classes
separate the entire nation? there's 3 classes, 1
on top and 1 below the middle doesn't matter and
neither does the low the top irritate and
subjugate the bottom two try to deny it but they
do it to you now the masses are controlled by the
minority they have just wealth, not rightful
authority we see the rich pockets getting fatter,
faster what will you do, is money your master?

land of opportunities i hear the word opportunity
so many times I'm not sure what it means to me all
importance lost in a definition that's been spread
to the masses by the age of integrity i hear the
talk about stability, i start to realize this
ain't the land of opportunity i heard a story
today about a man who had millions but no stories
to tell climbed on top of his mountain of money
& found he was all alone to live a life in the
name of money was the opportunity he should have
blown no shit i realize, I'm not the only one this
happens everyday, you know it happens to everyone
i get real pissed off, & i throw my hands in
the air but i got my friends with me, so i don't
care don't tell me what i want, don't tell me what
i need don't tell me what i have or what to be
taking, ill tell you what i want don't worry about
me, I've got my opportunity

i remember when i think of my youth, i don't
remember you, you weren't there you didn't care,
you still don't care, you never cared if i did,
but i don't it was a dream i had no choice, i
couldn't scream i had no voice to say or do
anything, i was all alone and the hate did grow
and i remember what its like to be different, a
constant fight, ya, i remember you couldn't see no
you couldn't feel, wake up from the dream just to
find its real, yeah i remember my mind was full of
hate, my heart was empty i couldn't take it it was
your choice to leave, i hated you, did you hate
me? a fight for custody, over me, a piece of
property, just filled me w/ confusion empty
thoughts, anger & illusions. Do you remember
me, that whining kid, that crying baby the hate
has evolved, problem solved, you don't exist, its
all your fault yeah i remember what its like to be
a kid, that's not my life you're nothing to me,
you never were, that's pretty lame i guess that's
just the way it goes... but i remember

My life what you think doesn't f@!#$ matter to me
i like my life, run by me how it's gonna be i
might decide to change my ways of i might decide
to ruin your day ok, i figured it out, 2 people
and 1 chair that's what this life is all about
your life is just a single day, wake up & go
to work, your death your escape my life, it's all
i have, it's something we share, & we die
wondering if and why, no i don't care what you
think you saw, you didn't see, & what you
wanna be, you're never gonna be my life is not
gonna be that way, when i die I'll smile, cause i
did it my way take a run here's your chance come
and get me, I've been beaten but you'll never beat
me, had your chance now it's gone, and it's up to
me i understand you, do you understand me?
understand one damn thing, it's my life, my way,
my life, it's all i have its something we share,
wondering if and why no i don't care wasting away
wondering if you will die tonight, i wont waste 1
day of my life

should... i guess I'm wasting my time trying to
tell you how i feel, or maybe asking you how you
see us, I'm confused but i know what i mean i can
never say it, i could hardly write it, you'll
probably never read this i';m not going to sign
it, no that's not me, it just seems this is the
way it had to be, not anymore i want you & me,
this is the way it had to be should have would
have could have had it, i blew my chance but I'm
glad i had one, far away out of range you cant see
no words can explain & no song seems complete
the more i speak i make a fool out of me, what can
be said I'm incomplete this is the way it had to
be, not anymore i want you & me, this is the
way it had to be

this town I've tried so many times to leave this
place, this town, my life these streets are a map
of my past, tomorrow they'll tell me about last
night there's nog odd news if there's any news at
all, this place is boring, this place sucks, this
place is home, I've walked these streets 18 years,
my whole life, i know their names like mine, and i
hate tonight where should we go from here, where
will be next year, this city is changing but it's
all the same, we've been here, done that, seen
this, & trashed that i can't take another day,
i hate tonight i say this 7 nights a week i hate
tonight, i hate this f!@#$ town, everywhere i go
& everything i see i try to shrug it away, i
try to sleep it away, i try to drink it away i
want to keep it away, there's nothing left to see,
it's a part of me no, it's not a part of me. I've
tried so many times to leave this place this town
my life, the same problems always come my way,
it's getting harder to see guess I'll find my way
home, i close my mind & the problems solved if
tomorrow comes, ill push on through

i hate (teen angst) I'm not racist i hate everyone
and yes, i hate you. I hate cops, authority
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figures, parents, teachers too. i hate cabbage
& brussel sprouts. i hate things i can live
without & i can live without you. i can live
without you, so just leave me alone, take your
ball & go home, I'll do it on my own the years
go by and the names, they change yet teenage
rebellion remains the same, just pissed on kids
living pissed off lives, pissed on lives

playing to lose you can't find it, but i know you
will, it hurts me & kills me to feel your hell
you find comfort that you'd like to share you find
you're not alone and now you like it here, i never
thought I'd see today, i never thought I'd see you
this way, tell me everything's gonna be ok, i see
that look in your eyes and i know you're lying, i
feel the flames & they warm me , i feel the
burn & it reminds me that my well has run dry
& I'm empty inside. too much is not enough,
you've learned too late, when you were sure to
lose, you raced to the game and now in a scene
where you get happy rejected, i find a friend who
is starved for acceptance. i never thought I'd see
today, i never thought I'd see you this way, tell
me everything's gonna be ok, i see that look in
your eyes and i know I'm lying. running from your
past, you're blind at the present and all your
plan have sold you out you're looking for
solutions, never looking forward, falling faster
than before, i can't believe a word that's said
and now i know you know you're lying to yourself
your lies are hanging you, you're hanging you,
stop blaming someone else

we grew up in our youth we must have been blind,
no conditions, none, friends easy to find, but we
grew up set in our ways, now what's happened it's
worse every day I've opened up & still you
can't see, don't hear my words you don't
understand me I'm trying hard & i don't want
it to end hey what happened? we used to be
friends. now it seems that we're so used to it
become so normal cant do without it, not by
choice, you say you do it by habit too much
fighting you know i don't want it. we grew up, i
guess that just depends we grew up, does that mean
we're not friends

one day 26 and Paul wants a great life, a good
paying job, a nice house, a kid, a pretty wife. he
can't hold a job, he never has & knows he
never will, he plays the lottery & blames his
problems on the world. I've been seeing this shit
for some time, we all got our problems, i guess
we've all got our needs, I've been seeing this
shit for some time, take good care of yourself.
first of the month and the rent is due again,
checking his savings he's got pocket lint to
spend. down on his luck, with no tears to spare,
desperation motivates a mind not clear. one day he
said things are gonna change, one day when I've
got things squared away. one day soon turns into
the next, one day were the words he said with his
last breath. 1992 Paul walks into the liquor
store, with an unloaded pistol, i don't need to
say more. his life ended in that tragic day, noone
cared for him, not one to this day

maybe tomorrow a missing child, a mother too weak
to stand she cries, her world turned upside down
she sobs where is my baby a victim of apathy. no
one regrets, no one regrets what they forgot.
nobody feels pain that's not theirs, nobody feels
anymore. while we count our losses we can see that
noone here claims a victory. cries for help left
unanswered are written down in the pages of
history. no one regrets, no one regrets what they
forgot. nobody feels pain that's not theirs,
nobody feels anymore. why can't we see this is
reality? why can't we see, this happens every day?
why can't we see that we're part of it? why can't
we see it's what we are, it's what we've done? the
problem here is clear, the helpless cries ring in
our ears. an epidemic ever present claims victims
with no names. i ask you how we can be content
with what we see? the tragedies that we've all
seen, i know we'll see again. why can't we see
this is reality? why can't we see, this happens
every day? it never goes away. why can't we see
that we're part of it? look around ya know we're
part of it? when will we see it's what we are,
it's what we've done?

what I've heard when your friends hurt you, they
know it isn't good, you don't respect them, i know
that i never could. when it comes to respect you
must give to receive, with friends like these, who
need enemies. from what I've heard one who hurts
is not a friend. choose them wisely or they'll
hurt you in the end. when it comes to looking for
friends, most pick and choose. the ones that don't
are the ones that always seem to lose. it's
happened to me. you know I've seen it before but
the good friends the true friends are the ones
that endure . like i said, respect is not a given,
neither is trust in the world that we're living.
the trust is not there with friends lik e these, i
have no respect for people like these. who will be
hurt? who will hurt who knows? it won't be me no
way, but i know. we've all allowed and we all will
again be hurt by people, the people we call
friends

there for me she was there for me and i don't know
why. she was there for me did i treat her good?
though i didnt speak she always understood, i took
her for granted and i don't know why. throng all
the tough times she loved me. preoccupied i was
too blind to see. she gave her all, she gave her
life she had no more, she did it all for me. she
knew me but did she know? i loved her but did it
show? there was a letter and i knew why. she said
she loved me then she said goodbye.

midline i need help i cant leave i cant breathe. i
see my way out but I'm in too deep to care.
emotionless, i feel myself about to break.
self-destruction, self corruption, this life i
know, this life i hate . with each passing day my
outlets slip away. i believe the lies and i dig
myself in deeper. i play a daily game of tug a war
between what's in my heart and what's on my mind,
not weighing circumstances, passing blindly by my
chances knowing some day i might die. in the
silence of my nightmare noone else can hear me
scream, noone else knows what i need, noone else
believes, i could die and not care. i need
something to set me free. reflections from my past
that seem so unreal to me, I'm out of touch i can
no longer feel me, my heart is sick and my mind is
reeling. don't know myself, don't know why i still
don't care . I'm the only one that's paying, and
I'm the only one that's playing. the more i
struggle the more i lose. i dig myself in deeper
and still don't care then the moment comes when
you reach for my heart, i know it's to hard to
find
Lyrics: My Life, Deviates [end]